Here I am writing this post, after all these years leaving this blog dead. What makes me want to write now? life. Life makes me want to express, the deep philosopher inside me that just want to write anything out of my mind.

Today, I came out with this theory of life,  we are becoming more anti-social because of what anti-social people wants and turning us slowly to them. Here are the explanation.

The world is run by politicians and big business men. What motivates them to do anything? money. Money is to key to their success, wealth and happiness. And what drives them money? people who have ideas, people who wants people to know about their creative ideas, and thats where business man invest in these people. Who are these people? anti-socials....anti-socials that spend time their researching to suits their needs, and since businessman doesn't care anything but just money and know that this would work, they invested on their ideas.

So there are.. social medias.. smart phones... tablets you name it. Created by anti-social people to the world, getting people around the world just to be like them without knowing it. At first, it kinda shown that businessman are the kings, they do not have the brains, but they know how to use other people ideas to turn them into money. But deep inside, these anti-socials are the real kings, because they are changing the world, to what the world did not expect it to be. No one knows how televisions work in the first place, but because the idea it slowly transform... supply and demand.. turning into every household needs.

So what I see in the future? An anti-social world, never the same before.. because of what anti-socials are truly capable of. What i'm trying to say these people might not stand out in the world, but deep inside, they are the one that are changing the world... to their preferences. They are the true genius, that dont speak much.... introverts..slowly taking over the world without the knowing of people. It's funny how that girls love guys who are funny or someone who knows how to win a girl heart, but deep inside they are using smart phones to message their loves one... the fact that the one invented the smart phones are introverts.

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder

And I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder


This song always....always remind me of you... I wonder why. Its just so you. :)

So baby, bring on the thunderrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Soooo!  What brought me to start writing in this dusty old blog that was mianly started by me in 2006? After seeing  a continuous trend of views which i had no idea where they came from and how this blog actually used to relate to this one girl that i used to like so much..but now she eventually turn to a real bitch. I wonder why karma have not strike yet, even it did or not ...it does not really matter now right? but is just weird that this feeling still stays in my mind after 3-4 years.

 Gosh,

Sometimes I actually wonder how could human be that evil? i'm still trying to figure out after all the years of loyalty and yet it does not make any changes to her. Words just can't describe the confusion i'm adapting now, the feeling of uncertainty lies in my mind wondering around as if i'm having a dilemma on how she actually used to felt about me. I would really like to ask her that question, somehow asking her ain't gonna solve the problem but at least, i would know the root to the problem.

 Feelings are weird, they could just move up and down according to your mood and thoughts. If only appreciation existed in her life or maybe she would know how i felt. If only she know the pain that i went through just to get over her after 3-4 years chasing her?

 Don't get me wrong I have move on long time ago, i just feel sad for myself for spending my whole teenage life chasing her and yet I still had no idea what going on in her weird mind. Rumors to be said that she would not be in a relationship with anyone no matter how much she love the person. It's like, she got a cursed of love that she did not want to reveal it or maybe she is just too holy ;)

After alll this long years and yet till now I still hold the hatred within me. I wonder why.....it isn't about the heart broken but the fact that it sealed inside deep in my heart that a girl that does not show any mercy. But whatsoever, I just want to hear her explanation one day because deep inside my heart. I know she is not that evil girl i been describing above, cuz she did bring happiness to my life and is a waste that I screwed it up or the matter of her having an infatuated love? Who knows, god knows.

andrew tai said:
ei  sien ah u reply with just one world only
describe more la
hahaha
She said:
thanks
bye
i wanna sleep
goodnight
andrew tai said:
OUCH
k la night LOL